This is literally one of the worst pictures I’ve ever taken
I’m posting this as a reminder to myself that it’s not looks that makes my ugly side it’s my ugly attitude.
I’ve been unnecessarily shitty to undeserving people lately and I’m realizing I’m turning into someone I don’t want to be. Feeling pretty is one thing, but being loved for your humbleness and good intentions is an irreplaceable outlook and I refuse to allow my own self entitled shallowness hurt other people or myself further.
Next time I feel like being a jerk to another human being and laughing it off BC I think I’m “prettier” I’m going to look on this and remind myself true ugly is a point of view, an attitude and
Can I #MCM my @ctothamay ???
#weredorks #werehotdorks #throwback #nopoorzies #nouggos #datfacedo #lastsummershennanigans #wtfisgoingonwithmehface?? #welooklikehighschool #youngandbeautiful <3
Things you’ll never know
Because I’ve said everything I’ve felt
& I guess you never really heard them
So I don’t know what to do with myself
These gut wrenching cycles we go through,
I never play by the rules I have fantasized in my head
But you’ll never be the one to lose.
I know there are things that I do that are seemingly unfair,
But the truth is I know self control, I know how to care.
I was told to go with my gut
That, that should be enough
I read it on a fortune cookie,
As you sat across satisfying your efforts
That to be honest, I can’t accumulate for much.
I’m dying and at the very least I am making more of an effort to survive this one
I’m in aw of myself that I am still this person
How do you
When I am right
When you tear me down
It will be like every other time
And I will hide in my head – hoping to be found.
What more can I tell you then verbatim I don’t trust you.
My only other option is to become a girl I don’t understand.
That constant need for reassurance, more so than right now.
I don’t want to keep going. But if I stop the pain will come rushing in.
You’ve made my words pointless. You’ve justified my fears.
You’ve conquered your interest and in that I see the clearer view,
We are a novelty, but my existence is so easily immune.
How do I trust, how do I go back to that mind frame?
The one where I was the one who didn’t care, and I my lungs had air supply.
I know how this will end. I know and I still continue.
I don’t even have excuses really just a pathetic wish.
Maybe I wish I never find out more than I wish of actual you
Maybe I’m the shitty unfair person and my actions will push you away
I understand you don’t get me.
I don’t understand how if I am so blindly giving you the knife to
THIS is pizza. Idk how I can ever go back to eating regular pizza again.
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Crazy how fast time flies. I took this a year ago at my bro’s in Cali right before seeing Dane Cook at the Laugh Factory. It was my Twitter pro pic for the longest but after a year, updates def need to be made. Here’s to finding that perfect life balance between drunk & bliss. #latergram #throwback #drunkChar #timeflies